There comes a time...

Life seems to be spiraling out of control ! I seem to be living a dream, or a surreal life. Just a month back things were moving along so smoothly, or actually things were swell. And here we are today, its just too bizarre. I fail to understand this. I can draw no meaning out of these events. I keep questioning my faith, but the answers seem hidden, foggy, out of reach. Forget that, the future itself seems so damn foggy and uncertain.

Testing times, they call it. Be strong, be tough, this too shall pass. I hope it passes soon enough, before I give up, before it all caves in, before we are brought down to our knees. I always thought myself to be a positive person, always looking at the brighter side of things, but today I doubt everything and more. Nothing seems to give me peace, I feel as if a storm is coming, am I prepared enough?

What can change the course of life? Is everything destined? I am a firm believer of destiny, but now........ I feel helpless at the thought of not being able to do anything, to have all four limbs but to sit powerless, helpless and distraught. This feeling can eat you from the inside till you are left hollow, a hollowness only slowly filling with pain. And then, no matter how strong you are, you just break down and cry.